Day 8 and 9 I was fine except for being a bit cranky.
On day 10 my heart was raising for several hours starting at 11 AM! That were my thoughts which wouldn’t want to let me alone – but when at my bureau job I can’t run like crazy until adrenalin slows down. I had to stay and try to focus! Eventually my heart slowed down and I wasn’t nervous anymore and in the evening I felt incredible while chatting with a good friend of mine!
Day 11: My panic attacks are back again! I ate my dinner in my habitual eat-fast-else-you’ll-die-style and if I would have had sweets at home (which I never have because once they’re there they’re gone already) they would have fallen prey to my emotional eating. Thinking of nothing doesn’t help and thinking good thoughts doesn’t work that well either. I’ll have to wait until my feelings calm down…
On day 12, my work-free day, I was in a really good mood but overall nervous and the mood could have been disrupted by a tiny bit of frustration. I’m glad it didn’t happen! I force-danced to calm myself, read a lot of interesting things and went out in the evening. I drank water all night long which wasn’t really that hard but a friend of mine didn’t want to easily accept my drinking behaviour which was a bit awkward and annoying. Didn’t bother me much though.
Movie-Time! Day 13 I was resisting popcorn and eating ice cream after watching a movie. The ice cream part was the hardest but I ordered Rooibos Vanilla Tea (without sugar) which really tastes fantastic: Sweet but no added sugar or sweeteners of any kind! Love it! Just had to explain why I wouldn’t want to eat ice cream. After I told my friends about the 30-Day-Challenge all were okay with me ordering tea 🙂
Day 14 already! I was ravenous after lunch, so I ate a lot more in the evening.
The serving size of every meal seems about right for me most of the time. Sometimes I tend to be a bit hungry before the next meal which is alright, another time I think I should’ve eaten more in the first place because I feel ravenous. As a binge eater it’s hard to estimate how much more to eat with every meal and how much is too much. In the evening I’m always eating until completely satisfied – this is my rule for being happy with this way of eating and not bingeing again.
My stomach was bloated the whole week and I have to find out what causes this. My gut doesn’t seem to have enough good bacteria to stomach the green food I’m currently eating. Maybe I’ll have to eat some probiotics – but before acting too fast I want to see if the Whole30-book has any guidelines for solving this problem! I’ll let you know next week!